I wanted to keep this blog technical. However, a lot of recent events in the last year and a half has steered my mind away from technical aspects to a more earthy level – a spiritual level.
I should say that I am reintroducing me to myself. I am not entirely very familiar with me. There is something inside me trying to tell me who I really am. I used to think the real ‘I’ is a product of your past and your conditioning. It holds good as long as your past is good – great studies, awesome career, beautiful relationships, bright future and so on. However if you encountered roadblocks in the past and find yourself in a bottomless pit of failure and rejection, it becomes difficult to identify with the real ‘I’.
I find myself seeking reassurance and comfort on the internet on articles and videos about spirituality to rediscover the beauty of being I. Yet, I have not come to practices of praying everyday or chanting mantras regularly to find this inner peace. My mother tells me these practices help. People at the Mata Amritanandamayi Ashram (where I work) tell me these practices help. Maybe one day I might really get it.
I used to think it was possible to understand the essence of our being by reading and discussing about it. Indian philosophy is full of material guiding you in this direction. The Gita, the Upanishads, the epics, the Puranas, the Spiritual Gurus and so on….. But only a lucky few really attain the realization of being.
