Been one year since back from net vacation

Wow!

It has been one year since I posted this post.

It said:

 ”Now I feel a need to begin again somewhere. Let’s try posting a few articles, which are bound to suck a little.”

Now that I am back from the feeling of hopelessness in one year – thanks to some writing and this job at Amrita, I feel kinda refreshed. A lot has happened in the last one year. It has been some time of realisations and walking and new friends and new hopes and all that sort of thing.

I feel like Wow! again. Man! I came some distance.

Finished derivates on Khan Academy

But, it just means that I have a long way to go. I am still in 11th standard. Once I get the basics right, I will move on to higher problems. But, it is certainly a very long way to go indeed. I realise that I always loved mathematics. Korah Sir and Lakshmi Teacher were indeed very cool.

I know that I need to go back to some basics and cover them all. Some physics, some math, some trigonometry, hyperbolic sine functions and all that. How long before I get my clumsy self to learn some math and research. I know now that all this math is going to come in handy if I am going to do some research.

The idea is to enjoy equations. Try to get the meaning and beauty of mathematical functions. Am I going to clear GATE? I don’t really know. Still, it is fun.

The long way from Engineering to L&D to Sales to CRM to Web Development to Social Media to Research to back to electrical engineering. It has been a crooked way all around. Let me see how far I can go into this space!

Wake up call – get back to engineering

I have been thinking marketing and social media and all those sort of things for quite a while. All of this due to the excess of extra curricular activities in college and the insane amount of creativity displayed.

I was thinking how to innovate. But, no answers. The answer lies in hard core engineering. So, now I am planning to get back into Electrical Engineering or circuit branches in a way. At 29, thinking of a masters in engineering may sound crazy. Getting a Ph.D might sound too crazy. But, hell! Crazy is the way it is.

Dreaming of working with some high tech research oriented place. Too bad I will be getting placed in my 40s! :p

Spending time in front of Khan Academy to brush up my basics. I am doing quite well indeed on that

Now elearning

Been a while I have been growing up as a person. So, the delay in posts.

BTW I am authoring another blog here. It is mostly on e-learning and such and written on the perspective of my employer.   The change from marketing and sales to social media to e-learning is slowly making some sense to me. Looks like I will stay in this sphere for a while. Learning is a noble cause and the stuff is here to stay forever.

But, then again do I really have some expertise in e-learning? Not really. I am just an observer. I can observe for a while and then become a journo or something of that sort. Well, maybe I do have some real skills with this matter.

 

Content here, there, everywhere and nowhere

I realise that we spend a majority of our time on content for the last 20 odd years.

Newspapers, games, TV, mobile, internet – whatever it is… Pictures, videos and text rules our conscience. These forms of media govern our thoughts, perceptions and feelings towards the world.

Google, Facebook, Pinterest, Youtube, slideshare, Hindu, Economic Times, Star Movies, Theatres – whatever we turn into, it is all content. Even the applications are based on content. Learning starts with content. If you are in a forest, you may be sure that you are independent of content. Still, content in the form of thoughts, sights, smells and so on guide you.

This may come across as a very obvious matter indeed. For a generalised discussion, we may feel that manufacturing may not be too content dependent. It is governed by physical and material things. Cement, Electricity, Roads, Bridges and so on may not really be content. However, otherwise, many things we know are dependent on content. Even knowledge is dependent on content. The religions and sacred books are content.

We are all basically in the business of content. We spend money and make money based on content. So, something I am passionate about is content. It can guide us, entertain us, provoke us and even take arms against each other. Music is content. Smells are content.

However, there are many things that words cannot describe. Orgasm for instance, the feeling of getting high and drunk, how we fall asleep, the feelings obtained during meditation and so on. Poetry and arts try to describe these undescribable things using imagery and so on.

It is fantastic to be in the content business. When you are not consuming, creating or contemplating content, you are in a spiritual sacred human space. Self realisation.

I dont know how clear I am in expressing myself. I am not a master in content. But, I know that rest of my life is based on content and absence of content. I would like to have a balance of content and not having content. In 2013, if I say that I want to have a business based on content, will people laugh at me?

Effortlessness

I want to go into the new year without putting any big effort into things and by taking things easy.

Being relaxed about decisions in life, being relaxed about aims and aspirations and so on. I have decided to quit smoking and have finished one successful smokeless day. Feels great about the deal. Sudarshan kriya from Art of Living seems to be acting up.

Let’s see how the remaining days look like this year. I feel this year is a blessing. The world did not end in 2012 and we are all still alive. I already feel the elated spiritual feeling. The places are old. The feeling and the outlook is new. It is good to sense this change.

Looking at 2013

Last year was a very important year in my life.

I have started seeing life in a new light altogether. In an introverted, sane, sober and contained way. A great gift in the form of the Art of Living community at Karunagapally has come my way in the end of last year.

I want to spend this year as an early riser. I want to enjoy the mornings, the meditations and even some light jogging. By 2015, I should be ready to run a marathon and push my physical limits.

A mix of spirituality and self help is what I am discovering of late. I think both these concepts are similar to one another. Spirituality comes from the olden days of the east and self help comes from the modern days of the west. Come to think of it, I have been doing a bit of self help in the later part of 2012.

When I look at the posts last year, I can totally see the frustration and anger within me. I am slowly getting to realise the need to accept the reality and move on in life the way it is supposed to be. It is not that I am not looking at material benefits as well. I am looking at them too in a major way. This time around, it will be a more mature outlook. That is the only difference.

Let us see how this year turns out to be.